Cradle, 2022

I made these drawings after having finished the Cradle – music album, trying to visualize my emotions for the compositions.
All drawings are DIN A4 (21 x 29cm), ink marker on paper, made in 2022.

While writing the Cradle songs, my associations were strongly focused on childhood abuse, and the mess that a child might have to go through as a result. The music became uplifting nevertheless, with a heavier undertone that sometimes shines through. Several people said it sounds and feels videogamey, which I understand, but wasn’t my intention. Maybe it connects to the surreal way that humans connect to life when still children, and their brain waves don’t yet have their full range: I read that for children, life is like dreaming. Everything connects in the weirdest ways.

The music was eventually created, and it took over two more years to release. The endless technical troubles offered time to expand the music into visual and verbal formats. On that path, I realized that the tracks, in their entirety, form a circle more than a line. The music doesn’t go from beginning to end, but cycles within itself — and that’s where these drawings came into being.

What happens before it begins –
and what happens after?
Cradle, 11
Cradle, 07
Cradle, 08
Lights on, lights off.
Temporary darkness, temporary light.
Cradle, 09
Cradle, 02
Cradle, 05
Cradle, 06
What happens before it begins –
and what happens after?
Cradle, 04
You come and go, come and go, forever orbiting.
You’re some madly orbiting comet:
there’s stability there, sure, some weirdly cyclic
and circular movement – but the reality I’m able to experience
is that the sun comes and goes,
when what I want
is eternity.
Cradle, 10
Cradle, 13
Cradle, 12
Maybe not now, but eventually,
and definitely.
Cradle, 01